I’m hearing things. They’re just little things, but I’d like them to stay that way. Unfortunately I have no one to tell. Most of my friends have made it clear they don’t want to hear it. I can’t tell my husband, he’ll be upset. I have no doctor to tell, or therapist. And I can’t […]Read More I’m starting to hallucinate and have no one to tell
I’ve been struggling with excessive moodswings, flashbacks, dissociative states, and panic attacks since we got out, and it’s not getting easier. I’m being a terrible person to my loved ones because I just don’t know how to control it. I’m struggling with paranoia, in that I think no one really likes me, and I’m just […]Read More This whole ordeal has trashed my mental health
So I double checked and I’m at 8 out if 12 projects done this year. And I have 5 hats (six if I add another for myself) and a scarf with something like 130 yards left, give or take. The scarf has deadline, but not until next year. It’s going to be BFF#1’s scarf for […]Read More I need to share something happy #5
My goal this year is to finish projects. I set it at 12. It seems like a lot but I have a bunch that are almost finished, or small, so if I stick to it I can do it. Currently I think I’m sitting st 6 finished. Anyways here are two pictures of the one […]Read More I need to share something happy #4
We got out. We have a place. We’ve been there about a month. We’re waiting for antimother to gather the last of our things and put them outside. That’s the short version. The longer version, while difficult to remember all of, left us unsafe. After much tension, when we went to get the last of […]Read More It’s been way too long
We just have to finalize the process but we’re almost out! We’ve already started packing, and we got some stuff into storage yesterday. Of course antimother and fuckboy tweaker are moving in I think today, but whatever. If they pull anything I’ll just call the cops. I’m not playing their stupid game. I’m too old […]Read More We’re almost out!
I’ve had no energy and no motivation lately, because this whole thing is just grinding me into dust. But I come bearing good news! We’re starting the process of getting out! The problem is antimother has to give us a reference. But I think she’ll give us a good review, because the other person we […]Read More I’m still alive
The harassment ended for a week. Then antimother and fuckboy tweaker showed up to grab what of her stuff she could sell, antagonized Husband A, who was (rightfully so) very upset, and said they’re moving in in a few days. Ladies and gentlemen this is my worst nightmare. I didn’t know what to do, but […]Read More I don’t even know where to begin
So it was antimother’s doing that she was there yesterday. Grandmother apologized. I accepted. And things are patched up. But antimother’s problems go deeper than I realized. Tomorrow we’re going to the police station and getting her to either pay the power bill, or let us pay it. And then we find out what to […]Read More I was wrong about grandmother, but very, very right with antimother. And bonus: fun with brain scans!
Grandmother told antimother that I might be there today, alone, so her and fuckboy tweaker showed up. Luckily Husband A didn’t want me going alone, and bff#1 took W to the park, so I wasn’t alone when fuckboy tweaker opened the door. He looked very surprised to see Husband A, and apparently no one else […]Read More I got set up for an “intervention”